I have always found it easier to be there for others, rather than reach out for support, for myself. With that said--- I need your prayers for my family. This past Friday one of my dad's best friends decided that life was not worth living, and took her own life. This woman is named Mary Beth. She was one of the few people that Faced-Off with my father about not supporting my mission trip. She was very open about wanting to support my desire to be a missionary. Two weeks ago we were all in Las Vegas for my dad's Surprise 60th birthday. While I was there I spent a lot of time with Mary Beth, which I am grateful for now. One night we stayed up talking for SEVERAL hours about what it means to be a Godly woman. We talked about how God never said that it was going to be easy to follow him. She stated over and over that she knew this, but that she was so tired of having to fight to survive. She had been though a lot of horrible things in the past few years, and was on anti-depressants. Last week she decided to stop taking her pills. I know that this had a lot to do with the fact that she was not thinking clearly about this decision. She wrote everyone notes, and asked for forgiveness. She also said that "She was going to be with her Lord" at the end of each letter.
What it boils down to for me... is that I am no stranger to suicide. This is the 7th person that I have been close to that has taken there own life. I am not sure how I feel? I am not sure how I am doing? I just know that I want to Praise God even in this time of tragedy. I want Mary Beth's death to be used to further the kingdom of God...
Please pray for her family, as well as my family.
I love you all.
I love you Alisha and you are in my prayers. Rest in the Lord and draw upon his strength. Trust in him for it is through him that all things are possible. We do not understand, but He is a loving God, and we can never forget that! I am so thankful for your sincere & growing Faith with our Lord!
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